Self-centered Freak

OMG!! I'm bored out of my mind!
I'm not lucky today...
It's raining and there's no cab to get me home...
I've been stuck in the same place for 9 hours now and I just can't wait for tomorrow!


It sucked today.
This day is pretty much over...
Just bits of insignificant events that are definitely not for the books...
What else can make this day any duller I wonder?


Sigh. Usually I'm okay with being alone...
But today, for some reason, I'm feeling extra lonely ;(
It's like I've joined a moping club
Wandering aimlessly around campus like a freak.

Why can't I find someone to bother?
Damn it!
I'm starting to listen to Breaking Benjamin again
Take me out of my misery!

That’s It?

I’ve just done my Ethnic class’ presentation.

It's nice to be congratulated by some of my friends. Besides, I thought I did pretty well. I prepared a lot and actually psyched myself out a little.

The lecturer said that a few things were missing (“politik masa sekarang” to be exact).

On other presentations, she gave certain pointers on where it was good or not but not on mine.

“Itu je?” she said when I finished. Nothing on the slides, or on the presentation... “Mana politik masa sekarang?” Then I said some stuff I can’t recall; something about politicians and issues. Then, she addressed the class and thanked our group and the next group came out for their turn.

In my head, I was freaking out! The topic was SEJARAH politik Malaysia, and on other presentations never did she ask on things related to current themes. Sigh. Honestly, I admit that I probably should have thought about that.

It’s a mixed feeling getting that feedback from her.

The problem is I can’t stop replaying the presentation in my head. Was I too fast? My friend said it was in a normal speed, about 20 minutes or so. Or maybe I was rude to her in a way...

*cringe*

I talked for 20 minutes and I got “itu je?” Maybe I should’ve slowed down and talk for an hour. Oh well, it can’t be helped now.

This was another unexpected event. There has been quite a few in this week, and nothing is happening like I expect it would. A few days left, I’m sure things would be fine. Then again, maybe I shouldn’t expect anything.

Can’t Stop

It’s bitter sweet looking at you

I don’t know why but it’s like I’m paper with you

I’m a balled-crunched up piece

Just a touch sends me in two ways

I’m a stepped-on paper, so crushed

All I can do is hold everything in

You come around and my stomach twist

You make me so sick; I’m addicted to it

When everything comes down I’m a flattened sheet

It’s a relieve but I miss the feeling

I’m still with creases

Just waiting to be balled up again

I know it’s all in my head

But what can I do?

I know nothing’s ever going to happen

I keep telling myself to stop, but I just can’t.